Being Able To Be Home
While if I had to decide where I was going to spend this year I wouldn’t have chosen to be back home with my personal belongings in another country, I’m also so grateful that I had a place to go. I know so many people who didn’t have a home to get back to and spent the majority of the year alone and not being able to see their family.
My Family & Doggo
I think going back to living with your family is always a little challenging once you’ve been living on your own for a while. You have created your own system of doing things, cleaning, cooking only for yourself, having your own space, so I definitely struggled to adjust in the beginning. There were definitely moments where I think we were a little sick of each other, but I’m grateful that I got to spend this time at home with my family, since during university I only came home one every few months for a week. However, the biggest highlight of my year has to be that I spent pretty much everyday since March with my dog and I can honestly say that he is my best friend now…hahah not sure if that’s a bit sad or not.
I can without a doubt say that this year has been extremely challenging in terms of friendships. I lost quite a lot of friends and became distant with people who I was super close with. I think partly because of the situation, partly because of my stubborn personality, but also because I had the time to reevaluate the people around me. However I’m so grateful for the few people who even though we didn’t talk everyday remained in my life and our friendships grew stronger despite physical distance.
The Sun & The Blue Sky
One of the biggest things I took away from 2020 was to appreciate the small things. Having lived in London for a while, I had gotten so used to the always grey skies and almost never appearing sun, that I hadn’t really noticed how much it can affect your mood. So every morning when I woke up at home and the sky was blue and the sun was shinning, even though there were a lot of negativity around me and in me, I was able to take a moment and focus on the simple things that can bring you joy.
Dancing & Music
Dancing and music were two of my biggest mood boosters this year. And since clubs have been closed pretty much since March, I’ve been harassing my family with my dances and “amazing” voice everyday. But honestly, it’s just another small thing that has brought me joy thought this difficult year and I can’t wait to be able to go to a club, festival and concerts.
When the pandemic happened and all the gyms closed I thought I had the biggest set back, because at that point I had built a habit of going to the gym almost everyday and it had helped me so much with my mental health and mindset. So, for a while I sat home not doing anything, which obviously very much impacted how I felt- I was becoming very negative, angry and frustrated. Sometime in April I decided to star running, and even though the parks were closed, I ran on the side of the road and by the end of December I was able to run 5K in 30min without struggling, which I was never able to do before. I started trying new forms of exercise- I did the Centr fit app 6 week challenge, I started boxing. Even though I can’t say I didn’t have periods of time where I fell off and didn’t do anything for weeks at a time, I can genuinely say that exercising was one of the best things that I was able to do this year, and I’m so grateful for it.
Although 2020 was definitely a hard one, I hope you were able to find something that make you happy. Let me know in the comments below, what you were grateful for this year and here’s to a better 2021.